On Doing Your Own Thing
I spent the weekend with one of my best friends - a woman my age (late 20’s) who takes her fitness very seriously. She does everything “right” - eats clean consistently, hits the gym 5x/week, drinks all the water - and has lost a ton of fat, gained piles of muscle, and looks, feels and performs better than she has in her life.
We went up to her cottage to play Chinese checkers and bake protein muffins and talk. And she asked me two questions:
What’s a macro?
Our friendship is a “judgement-free zone”, so my response was to simply explain both. But really? I was jealous. Like, sinking-feeling, incredulous, wide-eyed, take-deep-breaths kind of jealous. The respect and affection and admiration we have for each other is mutual; we both think the other is the shit. But Jesus. I’m calculating macros in the back of my mind every day and have been for years, despite multiple attempts to stop in the name of “balance”. I see Crossfit references everywhere, ranging from respectful recommendations to bombardments of “WE'RE BETTER THAN YOU”. I am constantly questioning my program, my nutrition, my goals, my results, myself. And of course she worries and reflects and adjusts as we all do, but this was a jarring reminder that there are so many different paths to health and happiness, and where I check in on other people’s progress and activities every day (through friends, this blog, etc.), she’s done this all on her own. How much more fulfilled, satisfied, and in-tune with her own body must she be as a result of not comparing herself to anyone else? Sure, she has a pinterest board populated with figure competitors for “motivation”, but at the end of the day, how she feels is most important to her, and she feels way better than I do.
I want to be more like her, but is that just me comparing myself to others again?
People ask me for fitness advice, and what I tell them is always within the context of self-love. Fuel your body. Listen to what it needs. Focus on what you can do rather than how you look. Work hard toward your goals while taking pride in how great you already are. Because you are great - in so many ways that have nothing to do with your body fat %.
I need to start taking my own advice.
Back home. Hit the gym on vacation 4 out of the 5 full days I was there (not including the day I arrived), but also had some pretty ridiculous eats and drank excessively on two occasions.
So, we’re back to the grind now. Eating clean (no alcohol, added sugar or processed carbs), trying to get enough sleep, etc.
I really, really want to be leaner. I want to lift heavier, too, but I think I’m going to focus on fat loss for a little bit and see how it goes.
Also really wish I was still here:
Guess it’s been a while since I posted. 5/3/1 is doing exactly what I wanted it to - lending clarity and focus to my workouts so I can just get in, do what I need to and get out. I’m into the second cycle now (week 5) and all is well. I’ve been logging on Fitocracy so if you really care about the details, you can check that out.
MRI for my hip coming up next week.
Seem to have gained a bit of fat due to some questionable food choices the past few weeks, so cleaning things up a bit and doing a couple of spinning classes per week. Shouldn’t be too tough to get things under control.
Made soup today - butternut squash apple (kind of like this), except this time I omitted the sweet potato, added coconut milk at the end and seasoned it with pumpkin pie spice. Pretty great.
Also been baking muffins and putting pomegranate seeds in everything.
I’ll try to start posting more frequently (my mom worries when I don’t), but it’s probably a good sign that I don’t feel like I need this blog anymore. We may be on our way to achieving some balance, people. Go team.
I was 131ish on Sept 2nd when I started cutting, and lost a couple in that first week, but didn’t do another weigh in after that. I was worried about what my Asia trip did, but it looks like my as-frequent-as-possible workouts, fairly balanced food choices, and miles upon miles of walking kept me on track. Great news :)
Sept 2012: Week 1 Nutrition Recap
Weighed in today, and I’ve lost about 2lbs since Sept 2nd (129.0lbs). While I’m fairly certain I didn’t lose muscle (since my protein intake was high and I only continued to gain strength in my workouts), my body voiced its disagreement in the form of a nasty cold and a delayed period. So, as always, we tweak.
Nutritional Averages | Sept 1-7:
That’s about 25% carbs; 43% protein; 32% fat.
The ratios aren’t bad, but next week, I’m increasing my daily average intake by about 150 calories, some of which will (happily) be carbs. Days like Sept 3rd (1200 calories) simply can’t happen when my BMR is 1,407 and I can maintain my weight by consuming over 2,000.
As for how clean my meals have been, I’m pretty pleased. Just gotta stay the course.
Gooooooo Week 2.
CYKL: Class #3
This class was soooo long. I thought because it was a 75min “endurance” class that it’d be primarily steady-state, but nope. Hills. Rolling ones.
- 1:15:00 || 160 bpm || 80 % (+1237 pts)